Until then

How long until you leave?

How long until I say one word to many?

When will I become unbearable?

Beyond the point of love

You will leave me at rock bottom

I finally thought I found my reason hold on

I thought I found the one who would love me through my darkest moments

Now that you're gone what is my motivation?

"Baby"

I was yours

"Princess"

You raised me on a throne

It soon for faded to babe...

"Babe, stop being like that"

"Babe, don't make such a big deal out of things"

"Babe, you're fine"

Who were you to tell me that I was fine?

You had no idea of anything I felt

Every night was up hill battle

and most nights those demons won

Those demons did win most nights

but each morning though I wish I didn't

I woke up stronger

Realizing I never needed you

I thought I needed you to fight them for me Now I'm realizing I did just fine without you

I thought I needed you to talk me off the imaginary Cliff I was dangling from

but every time I pulled myself back up on my own

One of these days I'll thank you

because one of these days I'll sleep without the demons

I'll wake with joy

and be able to face anything because I know what the bottom looks like

I know what it's like to be drowning above water

Trapped in my own mind

Lost in a sea of my own tears

and win every battle with every odd against me