You once promised me for eternity

Silent, troubled

soulless, bleak

A second, an instant

tortured

The shadows

You once promised me an eternity

You once promised me your infinity

It has promised,

Our blood red smile

You who speak from the shadows

You who hide in my mind

I sit blind,

but not deaf

I listen,

for you

glissining in the shadows

You once promised me infinity

but there is only confusion

for you in my mind

gone with the wind

but stay with goodnight

I would have loved you forever

I shared with you my soul

was there no truth?

There wasn't

A wish unfilled

I couldn't believe

there was only darkness in those shadows

and our soul is no more

I'll peel back those troubles,

I shall heal

You, my sickness,

rest in piece,

the shadows of my mind

Look at me

We put in the same amount of effort

but you only look at him,

Why can he go out?

Why can he date?

Why can he host parties?

Why can’t I do what he does?

I’m as young as he is

I deserve to have a childhood too

why do I have to grow up faster?

Why am I the one alone?

Is it because he’s funnier?

Is it because he’s more outgoing?

Is it because he’s better looking?

We have the same grades.

I never got in trouble,

Is it because I have a bad temper?

I don’t mean to but you won’t look at me anyother way.

I’m your kid just as much as he is,

I want to be like him too,

I want to have what he had

Can’t you please just love me like you love him?