"She's gone" said people

I kept silent

"But that's impossible"

I thought

(even though it was not)

She was smiling so brightly the last time I saw

Now it's been a while

Since I heard that

But I'm scared to ask what happened

I had only known her for a few months

But she had become a cherished friend

If only I hadn't met her

Maybe that would have been better?

For I wouldn't have been so miserable

Knowing that she's no more

She's no more?

It seems so implausible

Even now, when I am feeling nothing

She's no more?

I had a bad day today

Called a friend to whine about it

I ended up crying

Not about anything other than the loss

I'm not mature, I'm not that strong

I don't know how to deal with this.

The last time I saw her

She said we will meet after many days now

We said our goodbyes

Why was that the last time?...

If you ask me about my favourite flower I will say "lavender" as an answer.

I've never seen a lavender garden I don't even know what it smells like

But somehow it's my bias

Just because I had this dream

Where you were in a white dress,

Cowboy hat, looked like a country girl

In the field of purple flowers.

P.S. here I and You both symbolises me alone.

I wanna be alone

Just a longing soul, does that makes sense?

I wanna free my soul

And hide you somewhere I can't get

I don't know what to do

To do with your kiss on my neck

I don't know what is right

But this feels right so stay obsessed

Yeah this feels right so stay obsessed

Just let me run, run from you

I'll build a wall, won't let you through

It's not like me to be so mean

You were all I wanted

Just let me run, run from you

I'm not your hostage

I was never your hostage

*-* just this much

Song: Hostage by Billie Eilish

Link : https://youtu.be/skHbZBsS7hM