I walk around seeing red

I walk around a corrupt man

I walk around feeling the hate

I walk around loving this feeling

I walk around wanting this feeling

I walk around feeling life pure evil

I walk around knowing I am damned

I walk around loving these Saten eyes

I walk around slowly turning into Him

I walk around seeing life with Satan’s eyes

I walk around knowing no God can redeem me

I walk around watching life flash before my eyes

I've been beaten,

Yet, I don’t wish to be you

I've been bruised,

Yet, it would be nice to heal

I've had your love,

Yet, would it be happiness

I've had it all ripped away,

Yet I’m slowly getting better.

I crawl out into the light,

The beautiful light with rays of magic

I have been gone for so long,

The time has been everlasting

I forgot how this feels,

The amazing feeling of happiness

I wish I knew how to hold it,

To freeze it,

To keep it,

To bottle it up,

To have it forever.

I want to lay down beside her and talk for hours. I want to hold her in my arms when I am in pain. But she will never know this, and if she does, she probably doesn't care. So I will talk to her, I will smile. I will tell her all about my crush who she doesn't know is her, and I will keep falling in love with her over and over again. Helplessly in her control.