The ice inside my veins

steams

as it hits the top of the clear water

when I lean over to see my reflection

Is it a cold day?

Is it a burning hot blood drop?

Is it peaceful slipping into the abyss?

What a ripple that single drop creates

onward and outward the ripple goes

but where does the blood drop stop?

No body knows

Syncing my heart to the beat

Kaleidoscope fragments of thoughts

The sight of smoke and colored lights

The heat off multiple dancing bodies

The faint lingering taste of my drink

The scents of perfume and cologne

Enjoying the freedom if the now.

Decapitate society

and watch

the undead wonder about aimlessly

for we are afflicted with the virus

that takes over us

and leaves us with the all consuming

wish to speak with someone who has a brain

and absorb their knowledge therefore making it our own...

My

Forsaken Friends

Sorrow, Pain, Regret and Anger

~~~~~~~~

I leave you alone not by choice,

My heart has lept unflinchingly

At the chance to experience new memories of old emotions,

I have no doubts that I will come back to you Old Friends,

Companions to all who walk loves road

Just be -

Steadfastly committed

Unflinchingly faithful

Completely selfless

Never resistant nor self-reliant

For without you and the forbidden doors to my soul you have unlocked,

where would I be?

Unveiled

anger,

Unhinged

individual,

Unacquired

target,

What could possibly go wrong?

My body so heavy

yet my minds wide awake

Laying here in silence

I give as you take

More and more of my joy

My love, peace and pride

I can’t escape my own shadow

so now I must feed the ravenous monster it has become...

Body aching

trash tossed aside

used up and broken

long forgotten are memories of pride

Can’t forget

Won’t forgive

My past still to fresh

My future still to far

The present haunts me with ghosts of

memories and nightmares I beg to forget,

To much to take

my once innocent young life so easily shattered.

Raging wildfires of sorrow suspended

in a cage of steadily rising anger

What does it take

to know the true price of broken heart?

And how long does it take us to know the difference and the value?