Darkness

Eerie feelings

Sinister ghost stories

Crisp Night Air

Nostalgia

Engulfing candy

Costumes,creatures

Light

I know you're going to leave me

I count the days

I think and wait but push it away

But I know that you'll leave

I fear the next few days

I know when you leave I will be alone

You talk of leaving but not yet

I think

I count

I hide

I know

You go

Your gone

Real? What is real?

Well we were born, so that must be real

We're all real people but we pretend

People who pretend are people who aren't real

Real is the reality of life

Not perfection

But being genuine

Real is not pretending to be something that you are not

I'm fine

What an excuse

It's my only defense

But you always believe it

Do you even care

I say that I'm fine when I clearly am not

But you move on

You can't be bothered

Not by me

I'm fine

I've said that so many times

But you don't see

I'm screaming and you're deaf

Help me I cry

But you say that I'm fine

So I force myself to be fine

But I will never be fine

Not better

I smile, I laugh

You see me being myself

What about when I'm alone

I sit

Think

Look at my flaws

I am a flaw

But I go on, trying to be happy

I'm not

I'm scared

But don't know why

I panic

I hide

I go on

You don't know anything ever happened

Until I can't hold it in

It explodes

I try to hide

I'm suffocating

You now know

You ask if I'm okay

I say I'm fine

You move on

I'm fine

Not better

How does it feel to be worthless

You feel empty

Like nothing you do matters

Like you can try so hard but never be good enough

Worthless

It's a feeling of something that you can't change

By never being good enough, I am worthless

Not with anything

Not anything

Not anyone

I am worthless

A waste

No point to me

Better gone

I can be happy, but will still hold this

Inside and outside

It's all wrong

I am worthless

I am gone

Push it down

Don't think

Change it

Make it disappear

Push it down

Don't let it up

Strangle it's breathing throat

Fight it back

Push it down

Hold it down

It should be gone

Just breathe

Push it down

What happened

Pretend everything's fine

It's gone

How to feel good about yourself is a mystery to me

The constant torment of never doing anything good enough

Having a wall separating me from the chains that I'm bound by

I stay hopeful for freedom on the other side

I know that the mystery is over there , but I cannot move

Inside and outside , I look

I don't like what there is

I strive to find a way to escape these chains , but never find release

Everyday, the mystery dies, and with it

So do I

Close your eyes and think

Think if the one person you tell everything to

Think of the person who you trust the most in this world

Now picture not being able to see them everyday

Not to talk to

Not to rely on

Nobody to talk to

You try to call , they can't

You text, no response

You fall into despair with no one

No one to talk to

Feelings get bottled up

You can't take it

You live with the feeling of loneliness and at the same time your emotions are going to burst and won't stay buried

All you want to do is talk to the person

You need them

But there is no response