I tried resisting
But your voice left my breath panicking
I tried resisting
But I ended up planted against a wall with your fingers being misleading
I tried resisting
I didn’t need a savior when your lips found the trail on my neck and ignite me
I tried resisting
Let me crash against your lips and forget who I am and my guilty conscious
I tried resisting
Infuse me with every drop of feeling you have to revive and get me drunk

I tried resisting … No more …

I’m forever blue with a mask of a joyful yellow

Like that fake smile grew on my face with ego

Hard to declare my dim red mind filled with anger

I rather bottle these mixed colors into a purple blur

Show me the real happiness if it exists beyond this black

I’m forever blue embracing a toxic mind of a plaque

My face is distorted like a rejected canvas

Forgotten where I threw my mask, so reckless

The soul of this lifeless body still roaming somewhere

My fingers toss and turn strands of a damaged hair

Carelessly chosen clothes considered decent for society

Drain all emotions that stained my face out of sympathy

Line a smile with a cheap lipstick for the sake of a show

They lied when they said ‘Be Yourself’ I know

You bleed ripples in my calm waters of sanity

Beautiful like angel never doubted my certainty

Can I drift in a boat made of your dreams, but alas

Little I knew your true self was loaded with ego harass

Didn’t think such fake symptoms just shaped who I was for your liking

Like an idiot followed your shadows of love didn’t mind asking

A false hope clinged to my arms to pull me again to you

Resistance grew an armor with such broken glass of your face in view

I may be fighting miles away from you with a shield of karma

I’m getting too embarrassed to say my love was made in China

My words had fled before being caged by tears

Like a ghost I’ll float invisible without fears

Mute and I can’t nurse my shattered pride

I’m a fallen star with no glow even if I tried

Useless like any rock you’ll still step on

Raw like a diamond with a soul still not gone

Hollow, I've lost the sight of my light

Empty, Soothing darkness held me tight

Void, chorus of words silenced by a black knight

Seal, can't struggle in my own mind or fight

Demons, who form words of my poetry at night

Angels, gave up on saving me and it felt right

Hello again beautiful stranger

Didn't need to see your eyes for a trigger

Repeat our playlist and infuse my mind

I search for your chaos maybe blind

In the trail of your cloudy havoc you've bled

Shed that damaged soul and reborn, I said

Watching the candle flame dance to my breath

It’s cold and lonely like an embace of death

Freezing fingertips plea to take refuge

Your words cause havoc in my mind and deluge

I’m controlled by emotions and can’t stop my tears

Heard you repeat I’m sensitive insecure about my fears

I’ve grown tired of waiting

My feeling towards you seemed dying

Cast your spell and keep me in a small heaven with a kiss

Should I stop telling you it’s still empty without your bliss

On my side, I would turn my body heavily just to show my anger

I could hear you breathe while I fight my pride but it’s my cancer

Maybe waiting for you to apologize for my emotions

Never been the greatest in filtering my notions

Should I turn to face you and just admit that

Feed my thoughts with all scenarios til it’s fat

Hoping you won’t sleep and win this argument

I hear you turn again, why am I so unfortunate

Sudden heat closing to my back and an exhale glides on my shoulder

Your hands would wrap my body into an embrace marking this closure

Eyes are closed and my hands finds it’s way to hold yours

Like any argument we had with no loser or winner and no keeping scores