My darling

My sweetheart.

Everything I could ever ask for.

I'm not perfect

but trust me I'm trying.

I know i seem flakey

And honestly it's true

But there's just so much fear of losing you.

If I let myself fall

And let myself care

I may just be happy for the first time in forever.

And I know,

that's when you'll leave.

So hey darlin please understand,

You are my dream

I swear I am trying

Hey darlin please

Don't leave me

It's been so long and I barely know you

But are you the one I used to love?

Are you the one that killed me with kindness?

Not knowing how I feel kills me

Not knowing how you feel kills me

Are we what we were?

Or are we different?

Not knowing, that's the hardest part.

When I'm with you

I forget everything

But you.

When I'm with you

All I feel is love

Not the usually

Hatred

Regret

Loneliness

And sadness.

I can finally

Forget my pain.

Here I am

Stuck in you're head

I won't leave

I bet you're begging your dead.

This wondering thought

That just won't leave you alone

I'm here to haunt you

To break your bones.

So forget me not

Just like I said

I'm here to stay

While you're wishing you're dead.

Who are you

Who am I

I don't want to go and hide.

I'm always by your side

And you're always telling me to hide.

So stop it with the lie I won't hide

This is me.

I want you to hold me

I want you to love me

I want to fall asleep in your arms

I want to be happy

I want you to be happy.

Why won't anyone grant me these small requests?