Kaleidoscope eyes

We were blotted on with colorful paint

That couldn’t be erased

We smiled at our secretive adventures

And cried about parting the next day.

Everything felt surreal and twisted

As if looking into a kaleidoscope

Our dreams and nightmares

Flickering like shadows

Dancing around a flame,

Taunting it

And memories others would try and ignore

We would recreate in our minds.

Like when I was a waddling two year old

Unconscious of my language,

Or an independent five year old

Falling off my bike for the first time

But then I became what you knew I would be

A burden.

Of course you still loved me

But only because our kaleidoscope visions returned

Yours of unreal hearts and stars,

And mine of black meteors hurling through the symmetrical shapes

And I found myself lost without a map

But you’re everything to me.

I never tell you because I wrapped up in guilt and pride,

But it hurts when you tell me I’m wrong or dishonest

Because although the phrase says

Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me

They do.

But love defies every prideful saying

While breaking us

Making us vulnerable.

But what love also defies

Is sin

And instead of reveling in our own

Pain sorrow and pride

We watch it unravel and erase

Like chalk on a chalkboard

And yes we may have twisted kaleidoscope eyes

But that’s better than living in reality

Because I don’t want to lose you in a sea of

Death

depression

or anxiety

I want to be lost with you

In indulgence happiness joy and life

So don’t lose faith,

Or my kaleidoscope eyes will be broken

Because you’re the only thing that keeps them running.