@Teddybear9979

So I actually have a few that I love

"If you are silent about your pain, they'll kill you and say you enjoyed it"~Zora Neale Hurston

"If we lose love and self respect for each other, this is how we finally die"~Maya Angelou

"Sometimes I feel discriminated against, but it does not make me angry. It merely astonishes me. How can any deny themselves the pleasure of my company? It's beyond me"~Zora Neale Hurston

"You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm"~Colette

So the first one is because I think we are so quick to bottle our emotions and not let other people how they affect us when it's a part of life, and we should learn how to vent properly. The second quote just reminds us that the basis of life is love and we should try to practice this ideal normally. The third quote is to remind yourself that you are special and just because others don't see that, it doesn't make it any less true. And the final one is the fact that we are all just making it up as we got and everything won't be perfect; but when we look back, it would be a lot nicer if we at least had some fun when we screwed up.

This first guy I wanted to kiss sat next to me in class

I was four and he had turned five, and I shuddered when he passed

But now looking back the one thing I knew

Was that at our preschool graduation I thought "I should've kissed you"

When I was in the 10th grade I got my first serious crush

We talked over snapchat every night and even made my ebony skin blush

One day we were sitting on the steps and I was like, "when you get physically close to someone it becomes weird"

So when he suddenly came closer and closer, my heart filled with fear

And when his lips approached mine, I slapped him without a clue

Looking back, with a laugh, "I should've kissed you"

My first week at college, never had a boyfriend, never been kissed

But the first man I crushed on there, gave me my wish

We were friends then, friends still, we were watching a show

Then he just turned to look at me and told me something he thought I should know

Like a performance, without an audience or a bow

He turned to me and said, "I might be getting the wrong vibe, but can I kiss you right now"

This time my hand didn't raise, and I didn't want to look back and regret

So I just said, "Well I wouldn't hate it" closed my eyes, and promised to never forget

Mama said he was a preacher

That's why she got on her kneew when he beat her

She would cry for salvation 'till her tears hurt

Why she screamed "why" when she looked to the sky

Daddy said she was loose

No wine for her she could only handle juice

No shame when you're playing my game

Anything he wanted, she would comply

Never got home early, but she'd always give an alibi

For he never said I love you and she never asked why

Because she knew it would require him to try

Every Sunday daddy stood before the Lord

Spoke for the speechless and promoted the poor

Congregation on the egde of their seats, hungry for more

But never knew the woman in need was living right next door

They said Jesus, Lord help us, oh reverend help us see

We weant what you want, for the Lord to use me

He said, "You'll soon find what you're looking for, just look at my perfect family"

We went home that Sunday, daddy full of rage

"Why can't you damn heathens just act your age. When we were sharing the Lord I barely saw you smile"

Then he took mama in the back, haven't seen her for a while

My daddy was a preacher

Said he had many things left to teach her

Told us God claimed he could never, ever leave her

Said pain is what connects you to the most high

#caution #abusive #toxic #radical #radicalreligion #religion #communion #family

Black or AA

I've struggled my whole life to know what to say

To my family I'm African

To society I'm black

To the cops I'm a menace

For employment, there's always something I lack

These days it seems like race is a race

Discrimination is hardest against which shade of face?

All Hispanics are Mexican, better keep them out

And when they're qualified for the jobs they hold, we blame them for our economic drought

All Asians are Chinese, do you know what's up with my phone?

I'm sure you have experience from the place you should call home

You're from the Middle East? Oh I gotta run

I don't need your terrorist tendencies rubbing off on my son

And me, I'm black, are you from the ghetto?

Oh tell me about the "black experience"

But I doubt they want to know how I feel as though this government is my Gepetto

Struggling to break free of the puppeteer's strings

To get from point A to point B this world makes me do crazy things

As I sit on this form where the government asks for my type

They neglect to realize that it changes my life

When I claim race I am vilified, ethnicity I am ostracized

When nationality I am confronted by those before me who died

A control question they say, just to get a feel for our audience

Yet they learn of the control they seem to lose common sense

I becime a threat, a weapon, something to be feared

From a child's age to my dying years

The internal dilemma inside me builds

The thoughts in y head continue to fill

I am who I say I am, not what they

Yet the thoughts of they have more of a say

In my life, my success, my struggles, and my duress

I am sick of this psychological chess

But before I checkmate there is something I must say

If color and ethnicity are all the same

As I had been taight by my American pillaged education everyday,

Then what is white anyway?

#black #african #africanamerican #struggle #race #government #change #america #discrimination #poc #colored

Will they remember who I was

Where I stayed

Remember the toes falling out of boots

Of how I laid

Will they remember how it started

Or how close I am to the end

Do they just see me as the statistic

Or maybe their sibling, or a lost friend

Will they remember me outside of the store

That woman and her son

Do they think I deserve what I am

Or who I have become

Will they remember that last winter

When the air was so thin

When I was jumped for my leather coat

And left in only my sin

Will they remember I told God to bless them

Even though he forsake me

And when I finally get to see him soon

I’ll be sure to induce some third degree

Will they remember me at all

Did they even know I was here

For those like me, there is no memory

For I’m not even worth a single tear

#homeless #lost #challenge