Murders, Killers they all have a dark beat. They use their own regrets, and insecurities and unleash their dark side. They may use anyone, everyone to get rid of those feelings, just to find out they don't go away. Some people express the dark side in a different way, but it is always there, no matter what. No one is what they seem.

I know how that feels, just don't think about hating the people, and try to get along with them. Maybe you actually like them and you do not know it. Think about good things and don't focus on the bad, everything will be all right, you are just thinking of the worst possible outcome. For the book, take your time, if you rush the words, they won't sound right ,and it will put even more stress on you, and take more time away,  and believe me, I know from personal experience at school. Do fun things and try not to stress about it, writer's block will go away. Eating healthy, exercise, and a regular routine will help with the weight problem. Just don't worry, have fun and live life to the fullest.You will be okay.