So much unknown

Endless room for growth

So much we’ve never seen

Get out of your routine

Travel the world

Find new things to explore

Take in the air

These memories will be beyond compare

We come from different sides of reality

oh, its quite a tragedy

5 foot 2 blonde hair blue eyes

the reality some seem to despise

Hidden behind every corner is a new obstacle one must attack

Constantly I watch my back

women in the world today

constantly watching what we weigh

lack of support

so we try to conform

Become exactly like you want

yet my devils still haunt

You will never know the truth to my reality

oh its quite a tragedy

Long awaited you have been

Please don’t make me spin

last year had enough twists and turns

it’s certainly a time that’s been burned

into my brain and the memories of us all

As I am sure you recall

Please do me a favor

I’ll take you as my savior

do not make this year hell

I just want everything to go well

Be the opposite of last year

Let’s create a new frontier

a better future

where you are not the same abuser

2020 striped me of so much

but 2021 it is you that I trust

I live in fear

But never for myself

Bystanders video, as the act done

 by “my people” takes place

But I am not one of “my people”

I live in fear

Not from them, but for them

Another mother who loses her son

Maybe from a gun

maybe from a cop kneeling on his neck

Either way it is not correct

Innocent lives lost, with no one to pay

Day after day, the fear grows

Sprouting into the unknown

Pouting people pray

But they could never repay 

“my people” keep their jobs

And their lives 

I wish things could go my way

For I would jump far forward to what I hope will be the good days

I look at the mirror but I am unsure of what I see

Of course on the outside she is me

But I look at her eyes

With that a little piece of me seems to die

We are not the same

I keep my pain tucked inside

But yet it does not hide

I am who I am because of what went on

I am who I am because of how I strived on

She is the past I wish I could forget

The one who is filled with regret

The one who questions her worth

Instead of knowing what she deserves

She is me and I am her

Yet there is quite a few lines that we blur

Never question where I stand

I will always be there if you need a hand

I will never judge you by the color of your skin

But rather by what’s within

Look at me when you need support

For I will continue to reinforce

The BLACK LIVES MATTER

Even when we are not all gathered

You are worth more than you know

you have overcome the lowest of all lows

battled with your self

tried developed your wealth

let someone else in

you don’t need to be a lone wolf

you can be the leader of the pack

trust me there is nothing you lack

I am ready to go

not too far I hope

I’ve been distant and distracted

it has caused a lot of traction

who I was has faded

I think back on all I traded

I would have done anything for you

but now I am left here without a clue

no idea who I was

no idea of what I’ll become

but I hope that you’ll be happy

I don’t regret all that happened

I was gone long before I met you

our time together was nothing more than a vacation

I must leave again though

until I have something I can show

not for you, but for me

I need to find my missing piece

This quarantine has left us wrecked

Mental illness we can no longer neglect 

nearly everyone has become depressed 

family bonds have been put to the test

This level of trauma is hard to bare 

We were nowhere near prepared

People say this might happen again in the future

Hopefully it’s just a rumor 

Only time will tell

Hopefully we can break this spell

I wish we could be sure 

Because it is not something I wish to re-endure 

Even when this clears

I will still live in fear

With a pantry fully stocked

a secret stash of hand sanitizer locked 

Maybe then I won’t be so shocked 

People have died

Yet some believe it’s all a big lie 

The way this seems to work

I am sure it will lurk 

In the back of our minds it will stay 

Until it comes back one day

I never doubted that we were all equal 

After all we’re all just people

We need to trust that our generation will correct

The mistakes of those from the past

We cannot fear what tomorrow will bring 

For we must focus on today’s things

For centuries we have dealt with this type of brutality

Which is why there are countless casualties 

This must end soon

Although we will never heal their wounds