I pray to see thy beauty once again for every hour thy thither hence, my heart aches like ne'er before. Thy love be my strength and without you near, to keep me going, I shalt wither away and be taken Thither by death. Oh thy love I miss! for only once in a blue moon shall we meet, for our homes art far from eachother. I know in time we shall finally be together forever, and never be departed again. Yet my patients runs thin and I wish that day to be now. No matter the time it take I shall wait, for like the stars in the sky, I shall always be there for you, waiting for the next time I can be with you once more.

Oh what a romantic you are

Speaking so deeply of love and passion.

But you wouldn't really know about love

Seeing as how it never works for you.

You speak of moon lit nights and walks on the beach

Of candle lit dinners with whispers and giggles

Of gentle hands and the sweetest of lips

Of eyes that steal your mind and soul.

But you only speak of thoughts

Of wants and wishes

For every time you've tried

To make fantasy into reality

It's only turned into lies and pain

To long nights that drowned you in tears.

To deafening voices in your head

Questioning everything.

Oh what amazing love you speak of

But it seems love isn't meant for you

Your just the dreamer

The beggar

The fake

Hopeless

Romantic

One by one we go insane

All is lost yet all is gained.

Come into my mind and see

The essence of insanity.

All emotions become one

All emotions become numb.

What the hell is happening

Is there something wrong with me?

All these emotions inside of me

Make me laugh uncontrollably.

All I want to do is scream

Is this real or a dream?

Hahaha hehehe

Who are you?

It is me.

:)

Have you ever went on a walk

And thought about the history of it all?

How everything around

Became what it is now.

How everything that is today Is because of what happened in all yesterdays before.

Next time look at a tree

And think of all it's seen.

How it has never moved

Yet probably seen so much.

If that tree could talk

What stories could it talk about?

Of things coming and going

See the beginning and end of lives.

It's amazing to think how

Everything that makes today

Is because of everything before now.

You finally told me you loved me

That you wished to be with me.

Years I wished for such words from you.

And every time I almost said them to you

You would always love another.

But this time it came from you.

Your words dancing in my ears

Making my heart beat again.

Once more I believed in love

Once more I was happy.

Long nights on the phone talking about

Things we wish we could do together.

How we wished to be in each others arms.

Then the day came

When I was finally going to ask

that question.

When I was going to touch your lips with mine

yours opened to speak.

With a few sentences you killed everything.

You said you met someone

As if what we've said for days never happened.

You once spoke of love for me

But now you speak of love for another.

Killing me and somehow

Not even knowing your doing it.

Smiling all happy

As if things should be great.

Clueless of it all.

And now I die

And yet not one soul knows.

Not even the killer I called love.

Honestly I don't know anymore,

I use to think I did.

Thought I had some bit of an idea,

Of how things really are.

Thought I understood somewhat,

Of why things were the way they were.

But now I see

I don't know anything.

My world keeps changing

Going against what it was yesterday.

Night becomes day

And up becomes down.

Find out that truths are lies and nothing is real.

Just a giant ball of infinite insanity.

One thing that hasn't changed all this time.

If you don't let go,

You become.....I don't know.

Never will I leave they always say,

But then there gone like it was nothing.

Never will I lie people tell me,

Funny how I find out about the truth.

I will never love another soul,

Yet you tell me about your crush the next day.

I hate the word never,

Hate it with a passion.

What bullshit it creates with just one word,

So much pain it can cause.

Never doesn't exist,

It never did.