I was never the person that needed to be helped. I never asked for money. I never asked someone to drive me to work when my car didn't start. I never needed help moving a couch or dresser. I was always the independent person. Now, I am the complete opposite. I depend on my family and friends. I need help. It kills me to need them. It would have been better to have been killed. I would prefer it. Death is a better alternative to the burdensome shell I have become. I am a dependent, a nice word for burden.