Thoughtfully he looks -

Ancient though he is.

Tasting the tombs filled with books,

The air is all he is.

Tomorrow dreams of yesterday,

A quest that will never end -

Falling astray, he will not break or bend.

His sword cuts through his -enemy's .

Melting skin WITH THE heaT Of -Flames.

He calls to those who would be -free.

And sentences those who cheat and- lie to a life of shame.

Piercing eyes stare back .

As he smiles,

As he carries his burden on his back,

He flees the miles,

He pleads for the child he used to me

He awakens, and I realize 

That he is me.

Thoughtfully he looks -

Ancient though he is.

Tasting the tombs filled with books,

The air is all he is.

Tomorrow dreams of yesterday,

A quest that will never end -

Falling astray, he will not break or bend.

His sword cuts through his -enemy's .

Melting skin WITH THE heaT Of -Flames.

He calls to those who would be -free.

And sentences those who cheat and- lie to a life of shame.

Piercing eyes stare back .

As he smiles,

As he carries his burden on his back,

He flees the miles,

He pleads for the child he used to me

He awakens, and I realize 

That he is me.

Dreams are empty, 

Forced open, broken , damaged.

Dead unfelt,

Stare deep is life living,

Dreaming, turning into vapour,

Fucked and unimaginable,

Stored deep in vast emptiness,

I see a smile.

Death is my wish.

No! Who are you to tell me;

Who to wed? who to bed?

Like a flower

Follow follow

Is there tomorrow?

Swallow swallow

Do I eat the sorrow?

Do I face my indecision?

Do I die deaths design of destiny

I drink my dreams

I'm always thirsty

Face everything and run

Fuck everything and relate

Try to know love

There is only hate 

I know I know

Follow every ambitious relation

Divert insidious earnest depletion

Follow me...

I stand staring in her eyes,

Tears fall cascading down her face,

Beauty is similar to emptiness,

And love is life in disgrace. 

Forced to deal with this situation,

She pleads, begging me to stay.

I only want my empty fascination,

To break me, alone , in a faceless decay.

Shattered - she grabs the blade,

Slits herself navel to chin,

Bleeding out history is made,

I allow her sin.

False sense of hope prevails,

Against the grain I stare in her lifeless eyes.

No more! My sanity is frail.

I never wanted everything to die.

Alive in dreams -

Swallowed by your tounge -

I don't know who I am!

Cast aside only your sun.

Your torment drive me.

Listless, lifeless -

In a tormented eternity,

Is there hope for absolution?

Take me to the top,

Shallow - let me drown,

Fuck everything you told me,

I am hate!

I am death!

Broken dreams remind me -

I am nothing!

Swallow me like a seed of discord-

Did you think you could let me break against the wall? 

Follow me!

I am diseased!

Forced open drained of my dreams.

Tormented - lost- Broken -

Fuck all you've done and said!

I am told the mirror never lies,

Face fate - my rejection in reflection

All this I see as I glance at you!

I'm done!

The shards of broken memories,

Stare back at me,

Tears stain what was left of me.

A thousand tiny shards - looking glass

Fragments in forced recollection. 

Face fate- in time a memory will bring around security.

A thousand images of what was me in a thousand realities.

Stare upon my image.

I'm sorry!

I need a way out,

Help me! I plunge blindly into nothingness, 

betrayal is the cause of my heart,

Who has betrayed who?

I fall endlessly....

... blindly searching.

Is there a way out?

Scattered amongst the ashes,

My former self.

I need to escape the monster that is

Self!

I'm tired of this -

GET your fucking hands away from me! 

Let me carve my shame in my arms;

Nobody could ever love me anyway.

The voice speaks to me,

Telling me to suffocate the fucking taint!

As I pull my lips apart in a soundless scream,

My life is the blood that spills.

Suffer not my madness -

Will you be near? 

When suicide is the ultimate power play,

Will I finally have control?