With every night I stay awake

To ruminate over our fate.

Looking back on the past

Wondering if I could have made us last.

But when these thoughts coincide

Is when my feelings can no longer hide.

You gave the warmth of words and hugs.

I felt the spark of love ignite.

To start this fragile light of mine;

Give it emotion it never knew;

Gave to me the knowledge

That the one I love is you.

You gave back this light that I wanted us to share,

And took another’s that you think has much more care.

You don't see my light and how you've made it so dim.

Only his light and your future with him.

I see how his light makes you smile,

And how I only kept your attention for awhile.

You once gave me emotion filled with glee,

But not hate and sorrow is all my mind can see.

Even with these thoughts of hate

For a person whom you wish to date,

I wish you the best of luck.

This light still loves you and the memories from the past.

But with every moment away,

I fear these feelings will not last.

Just don’t forget the light i've held so dear,

Because i'll be right here,

Even if his light disappears.

Lately this desire has led me to dread

That thoughts of love

Are lies put in my head.

That that in which I crave inside

Will only leave me left behind

Those that wish to deceive

“Our” is the word I say

Only to be left with echoes of lost love

That left my heart and pushed me down.

These sounds bring back the wounds,

But this pain will only last

Till the day I forget my past

Viewing those that forged emotion

All to sharpen their tongue reaps pity

From those who so helplessly fell for them.

I lay with sorrow till day break

For those that have harmed.

Sadness for those that will never feel

The touch of another's heart.

Eventually one will come along

To heal the broken parts, stained hearts, and corrupted thoughts.

Some may look down but hope will be strong

In fear of becoming those

Whom have done them wrong.

Until this person steals my gaze

And cherishes what others have left

I wont lose hope for better days.

Every morning wanting to free

From the masks put on to hide the real me.

Suffocating in a sea

Of thoughts others wish of me,

Poison lungs to a degree

Where masks provide solace.

So many to choose, hundreds to see.

How about the usual fake smile of glee?

Bending light to hide the shadow

Behind a safe translucent glow.

To make sure as not to show

The truth hidden beneath.

These masks deceive, and trick and bend

The truth, so I may make a friend.

Making friends with masks is no surprise.

But to keep a friend is why I keep using lies.