He asked me whether I took pleasure in his pain. I shook my head as a tear rolled down my cheek. I told him " I need to do this for myself, I need to feel happy again". He laughed, telling me that I didn't deserve to be happy with anyone else. "I'm sorry" I replied, and I turned to leave.

And that's when I felt it

That's when the world went black

That's when my head hit the cold ground

That's when I knew...

When I knew that I could never leave.

I saw the way you looked at me,with loving eyes yet I'm still the one that feels like a monster. When all I do is talk to you with honesty but with every word I lose my integrity. The tears rolled down my face just as fast as yours did, and my heart sustained the same injuries as yours. But I'm still left wondering whether it was all my fault, whether it was just a chain of overreactions that made the cracks start to show.

I just wish we could be really happy again, like we always used to be. Seems like that's all just a memory now