There's nothing more that I'd love to do but shadder the insults you hurl my way. What makes you think you are better than anyone? How do you know that you are better than I am?

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I am not going to let you come in and break down every wall of confidence that I have built. Are you trying to use the bricks in my wall to build up your own wall? That won't work because creating a strong wall requires a process, a growth within your mind. By stealing my bricks, you will have already failed making a strong wall for yourself.

I am not myself.

I am a walking body

That looks like me.

My brain is not connecting

My thoughts and my actions

Like they used to.

I find it hard to focus.

My ears tell my brain

Not to think,

Not to focus.

My body does not want

To move the way

Other’s peoples do,

The way mine used to.

My eyes want to shut

To the quietness of the dark

Beneth my eyelids.

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#poetry #motiviation #motivational

#writersblock #sad #misophonia

As I awake, I find myself in the middle of nowhere. All I can hear is the rustling of fresh leaves against eachother. How did I get here? I arise to my aching feet and take a few steps. After looking around my environment, I stuffed my hands in every one of my pockets.Where’s my phone? With no plan of how to escape this maze full of dark colors, I began to walk one direction. I will eventually get out of here. My clothes were hurenously dirty–one reason why I found nature dreadful. I abruptly stopped as I heard something moving around in the nearest bush. My heart began to rapidly leap out of my chest. Out popped an adorable, little bunny. There’s no threat here. With every step I took, I began to notice the millions of shades of greens, browns, grays, and reds spread throughout nature. I grew tired of walking and that’s when I found this tree stump. I’ve spent two hours just sitting here enjoying my surroundings. This is not in the middle of nowhere. This is the middle of my soul, mind, and heart.