From the depth

Of my broken heart

I send my love

Through the wind

From the depth

Of your broken heart

I feel the pain

In every beat

Maybe your hand

Never touched this skin of mine

But still.....

The caress lives within my soul

Maybe I've never seen you

Eye to eye

But the image of your face

Will never be erased from my sight

This longing

It's too painful to bear

Distance.....

It's tearing us apart

Where reality is nowhere

To be reached

I become.....

Something you couldn't embrace

Separated

By time and space

I'm the shadow

Of agonizing memory

No more me

As I fade into the darkness

Gone..... Within the night

-Jess / Jessabelle Autumn

I've drifted

Too far away

Until you pulled me back

To the shore

I've forgotten

The sense of passion

For I've been alone

Inside my head

I was lost

Within my own thought

Tangled with doubt

Led to frustration

So will you

Remind me again

The sound of your voice

Teach me again

What it's like

To be in love

Will you hold me

And whisper my name

Because I couldn't remember myself

This amnesia

It's killing me inside

But your love

Will always bring me back

To where I belong

Right here..... Inside your heart

I've drifted

Under your waters core

On top of the sliver lining

Dreams are smooth among starlit promises

I've misplaced this

Lost staring inside the sun

Your love is

Soft as a prism shining from the moon

Ocean watered reflection

I can taste your lips

But shadows play with my head

Was it a dream my love?

Of my most held desires wished

Bring it back to me

Your hand in mine

Rock my core

Shake my spirit my love

Revive what's missing in mind

Relight the rainbow behind my eyes

Full of you that glows

Because I remember the warmth

This could be why without you I am cold

Give me all that you are

Because I am broken

And we make each other whole...

I once recalled

-Jess & Ashawn

Tired of repeating the same shit

Yet you still trying to fit in

How's that feel licking your own spit

When you can't be comfortable in your own skin

Running around the maze

Looking for a way out

But what can you see in a thick haze

When your intention keeps going south

You let others dictating your mind

And you consume their ideology

Then you preach about being blind

Realizing you've abused your philosophy

Why can't you be real for once

Live your life with no expectation

Open your eyes for there's still a chance

Just be yourself with no hesitation

-Jessa

Things you hide

Deep inside

I could see it clearly

Written in your eyes

Shallow grave you dug

To bury all lies

I could sniff the smell

Of your betrayal

Decaying thought

Of you and her

Creeping behind my back

Ripping out loyalty you own

Should I be ashamed

Of what you did

For staining us

With your shit

Or should I keep the secret

By swallowing the truth

And consume more heartache

But still I wonder

Did you whisper to her

About me

Did you repeat the same script

Between you and me

Or did you kiss her

The way your lips

Were locked on mine

But please

Forget what I say

For I don’t want to know

I don’t want to hear

I just want to walk away

-Jessa

I've died

A thousand times

Loving you

But I'd lived

A thousand times more

Wanting you

I've tasted pain

Long enough

To be with you

But I've endured agony

More than I could take

Without you

Bittersweet romance

Turned into ashes

Just to rise again

And standing tall

Fear not the wound

For it will heal

With just one kiss

Though the scar will remain

But love conceals

The ugliness within

-Jess

I search for you

Throughout the galaxy

And I've changed my name

For a thousand times

Just to look for the one I love

But among the stars you laid

Painted the night canvas

With my face

But how can

I reach to you my love

When you're so high above

Laying down here on the ground

Hear me sing a love song

A rhapsody of longing

To have you near

Lullabies to feel your soul here

Dying.....

I'll pray to the moon

That I'll be waiting here

For your return

Till then.....

Let me hold your heart

For now

Trail of stardust from your lips lust

Of traveled skies to find what I cannot possess

As a constant...

Only wishing for its remnants to bless me once more

Against the pitch black you move

Shining pure of all that I gaze

Such a wonder your love draws on this blank sheet

My dreams are made on soft skin and kisses placed

Long conversations in the dark

And love made this spark...

I seek you over the moon

As your eyes stare as prisms

You light our way to forever

As galaxies awaited you bloom

And I'm so starstruck

Holding wishes then in soul

As you move like shooting stars do

Across my broken memories

Lighting my dark ocean waves

You reflect from above

Starlight love

The glory to be able to see

But a blessing in your arms to be... my love

-Jess / Ashawn

I won't speak

No more

For I've ran out of words

Nor I'll cry

For my tears

Has been dried

Too tired

To hold on

Too painful

To let go

But I choose

To stand alone

Because

All these times

I'm always

On my own

-Jessa

Helplessly......

I watch her

Repeating the cycle again

Silently

I cry seeing her

Falling all over the place again

So hard

To read her mind

So difficult

To understand her silence

So complicated

To find what's buried inside her heart

She's lost

And she wants to go home

She's scared

And she wants to move on

She's broken

And she wants to be fixed

But......

Invisible to the eye

Second choices of all

Where's hope for her

With no voice

To be heard

Will she finds her home

And so

She chooses me

To bleed her again

And she's finally

Saved......

#Jessa

As your arms

Wrap around me tight

I find it hard to breathe

Asphyxiated...... With your fake love

And as your lips

Caress with mine

I taste the bittersweet of your venom

I'm choked....... With your lies

Struggling to break free

From your embrace

I give you the final kiss

With the flavor of truth within

Here I watch

The death of us

As you swallow the poison

From my tongue

And me......

I'm dying inside

Consuming the heartache

You've ingested in me

-Jessa

You pushed me

To the edge

Till I fell

Into the pit

Badly hurt

It was a struggle

To breathe

In the atmosphere

I crawled out

Healed

With scars

Carved on my skin

Then

Here you are

Waiting

With arms wide open

But now

I'm something

You can't embrace

Illusion I become

In this reality

I'm history

For I was existed

In your life

And my name

Stuck somewhere

In your memory

But never again

You'll have me

So here I am

Singing yesterday's lullabies

Till you fall asleep

Tonight

-Jessa