do you ever see a glimpse of someone

or just a flash of personality

or a habit

or a gesture or a thought

and for a fleeting moment you're like wow I'm so attracted to you

Maybe those are just pieces

just pieces of all the things that you will someday come to love about a person

and each fleeting moment of attraction will just hit you all at once

right when you find the person you're meant for

like everything has added up

and voila- here you are,

Ive been seeing you all along

We are perpetually stuck

In a game we both made

Both changing the rules each time that we play

Hoping to win but knowing we'll lose

Keep losing each point we're trying to prove.

You hide your emotions behind a veil of deceit

Wanting me to surrender and lay at your feet

But if I give you what you think you want

This game is over before it really got to start

You're afraid to show how you really feel

I do the same, It's part of this deal.

If one shall win, then both shall lose

So we dance around pretending to use

Playing this game is all of the fun

When we lose our fire we're really done

So you fake left and I fake right

Holding on for one more night.

She lays her heart-

in the palm of his hand

Hoping he will not crush it

Yet-

knowing he can

Little does she know

His hands are stained-

by blood of others

Those who have done the same

The name leaks like mercury

as it falls from their lips,

Twisting me up in treacherous vine

my soul takes the hit,

There's a thunderstorm inside me,

A violent ocean in its wake

The waves keep getting bigger,

and the emotions hard to take

Theres a wolf deep down inside me

Howling at the moon

Giving fit to sorrow,

relief comes none too soon

There is a blackness inside me,

waiting to release

The dark clouds keep gathering

never seeming to cease

While I am left with inner turmoil

you are greeted with none the same

You are gifted with a calm indifference,

at the mention of my name

One day

a million miles,

a million years,

a million thoughts,

and a million lessons away,

We'll see one another again

We'll bump into one another on the street

Or Ill drop' my purse

and you'll help me pick it up

or you'll hold the door open

not realizing at first-

the very person-

you are giving favor too

is the one person you owe favor

to the most

and serendipitously,

or auspiciously,

depending on who's

window

you are viewing

this from

your's would be the former

and mine the latter

we meet again.

And this time its sweet

but its aftertaste is

faintly bitter,

as if the ingredients

are just not

quite,

what they should be

because-

in your eyes is the sorrow

and finally the understanding

of the million glimpses of me-

I gave to you,

and how you never really took the

time to appreciate

any single one

and so in this moment

all the things you wished

not to see

became all you could

see

all the little doors

I granted you access to

were blown wide open

in realization

of the we

we could have been

and the

effervescent regret

bubbled beneath your surface

and in what seemed to

be

a last attempt

to access those

hidden pieces of me

you lay the pieces of you

on the cement

in the middle of the street

unknowing-

that those little whispers in the dark

those sparks of veracity

I gave you so swiftly

a lifetime ago

were no longer yours to behold

and in that moment

in the middle of the street

a million miles

a million years

a million thoughts

and a million lessons away,

you looked into the eyes

of what very well could have been

your future

but then I turned away

and looked into the eyes of my future,

a future I never would have

had the chance to find

if I was the the future

you had chose.