Broken
You pass and I catch your scent, like lilacs blowing in a sweet wind. I can't love you.
I can't touch you.
I can't win you.
But I can't stop.. I so desperately want to love you.
Your eyes like a wild ocean, and I can smell the sea spray.
You are Mysterious and beautiful. No one knows the secrets that lie beneath your skin. No one but you.
You leave me broken and crumbling at the seams, slowly clawing at my heart.
Why can't you see me?
Why can't you love me?
Want me like I want you?
Why can't you feel what I feel?
Exams
Sleepless nights, stressful days
I feel trapped, drowning in my own mind.
Pressure to do what's right and remember every word you have ever heard.
Staring at the paper, gathering my thoughts as my head races for the answers.
Palms sweaty, the heat of this perplexing ink on paper drives me slowly insane.
My whole life is determined by my ability to solve made up problems thought to be challenging.
Exams
I looked around one day and realized how screwed up everyone around me is sometimes.
I realized that I'm never going to be like them. I have wonderful things to look forward to.
I have some of the best friends in the whole world that I can trust and who will look after me and guide me.
I couldn't ask anything else from myself, or my friends, and I was content with who I was and who I would become. :)
U n d e r w a t e r
You're falling slowly, at a snails pace, deeper and deeper.
Nothing but you and your thoughts within miles.
Silence devours you as you drift downwards, into the abyss.
You open your eyes.
It burns, but you keep them open.
You like the pain.
Your precious air is slowly being stolen
By this invisible monster that possesses you now.
Glimpses of light penetrate the surface and shimmer like tiny golden fish.
You watch as they fade into blackness.
A tight pain forms in your chest.
It spreads to your neck,
Then your head.
The pressure is unbearable.
You close your eyes as the last wisp of air you posess is lost to this inevitable monster.
He silently claims his prize.
A Warm Summer Breeze
Walking along, alone again.
Peering into the depths of the vast deep blue.
Oh what has come of me?
What could I do now?
Sand between my toes,
A feeling like millions of stars.
I hear laughter from somewhere,
But I know I will never experience that sensation ever
Again.
A warm summer breeze sends me into a daze.
I feel the sounds, hear the colors of the wind as they softly lull me into a state of simply
Being.
I am not alive, nor dead.
I am nothing.
