I didn't know what to do and so I wrote a letter, a four page letter pouring out my pain and honestly to the one that had been my best friend for the past six years. I feel like I need to go to his house and talk to him, the letter was suppose to be a back up plan in case he asks me to leave. I feel like just giving him the letter would just be a good idea to go give to him. I'm confused, what do I do? Do I be brave and release my energy? Or do I coward out and give him the letter possibly not knowing if he will end up reading it? I need help.

Drove away

Sat at a bridge

Contemplating to jump

More anxiety

More depression

More dark thoughts

Until you jump

And it goes away

But others get it

The close ones

The true ones

And they quit

Everything in life

To suffer through

The decision

That you made

I'm feeling a loss of hope that true friends actually exist. I am being completely ignored by someone that was my best friend for almost six years now. I don't want to keep getting tossed around like a rag doll when I've treated him like my master when I'm a dog. I just want to talk to him and tell him that I don't want to keep getting hurt and I don't want to be friends with him, but he acts like I don't exist. I know I shouldn't be wasting my time but the thing is that he is still keeping me awake at night until 5am when my sleep medicine actually kicks in. Remembering all the memories and the fun we had together is wasted and gone. I thought things would change but in reality people stay who they are, and he happens to be the one who knows how to hurt more than help.