My world slowly fades to grey,

As I watch you walk away.

I’ve caused you much grief and sorrow,

And you were mine today but not tomorrow.

I feel my joy now is all gone,

By my own hand I’ve done you wrong.

Like a bad dream I’m gone and forgotten,

My soul truly is dead and rotten.

I feel the weight crushing inside,

So now back to the darkness is where I hide.

It may be dark but they all know me there,

If you loved me once then say a prayer.

I don’t know why I can’t get this right,

But I’m out of gas can’t keep up this fight.

But it’s not your fault I don’t blame you,

You did your best to make it through.

At the end of the day this falls on me,

And with no strength left I fall to one knee.

My battle is over here I’ve done what I may,

But my best wasn’t enough to make you stay.

So now I’ve lost you through no fault but my own,

I pushed you away the space it has grown.

You say you’ll come back you’ll still be my wife,

But here on this ground I’ve given up my life.

I know where I’m headed it may not be to far,

To open that wound cut open that scar.

I can hear two types of music I hear it very well,

Like a slamming cell door or funeral church bell.

Only two options simple nothing more,

If that’s all that there was what was I fighting for?

I’ll sneak out of the house later tonight,

I won’t raise a soul I won’t stir a fright.

I know where I’m going the damage is done,

I’ll face it tonight at the end of their gun.

You won’t see me again I hope you move on,

By mornings first light I’ll be dead and gone.

I should have ran away to save you right when it started,

But now I’m a member of The Symphony of the Broken Hearted.

I’ll tell you a story

Of the woman just for me

She’s the best there ever was

A real wonder to see

All the heads they do turn

As she walks on by

Like an Angel here on earth

With this I do not lie

My heart jumps for joy

Just to see her around

And tells me she loves me

Without making a sound

The situation were in

Is a tough one for sure

But to make her my wife

I will always endure

I won’t let her down

No I won’t go astray

I know I’m what she wants

When she asked me to stay

I know it’ll be tough

But the pain I survive

Because only with her

Do I feel alive

I know this won’t be easy

No walk in the park

But she is light in my life

When it’s only been dark

I hope that she knows

My eyes are only for her

I’ll tell her every day

Just to be sure

And when it’s all over

My wife she will be

Our happily ever after

This you all shall see

My sobriety is key

My one holy grail

She has so much faith in me

I know I won’t fail

So whether we’re together

Or at the times we’re apart

I hope that she knows

She always carries my heart

I hope that she smiles

When of that she thinks on

So even if I’m not here

She knows never am I gone

So this was my story

I hope you listened well

I’ll tell you all again

At the first wedding bell

I’m tired of being

The one that must wait

Always am wishing

I could change fate

Instead I just sit here

Frozen in fear

So no one can see

My one lonely tear

I never imagined

The way this would go

Since that first kiss

It seems so long ago

I fight to hold on

It’s all I can do

Fight for a better life

But I really fight for you

I know that you see

The pain that I feel

I’m beginning to questions

What’s really real

I can hear all the voices

Telling me lies

As I slip into madness

Silently cries

Their off to have fun

This time I stay back

For the will to go on

This I do lack

But I hope they have fun

I know that they will

As I sit here in silence

With a heart cold and still

I should just move out

And let her move on

I’m afraid she’ll forget

And then she’ll be gone

Every time that I see her

My soul rips apart

She’s the only one I give

All of my heart

For the rest of my life

Only her I will see

Wishing oh wishing

She could have chosen me...

To find you where

The stairs do meet

It is this secret

That we must keep

To wrap you up

Hold you close to me

My only love

You’ll always be

You set the bar

No one can compare

To let them try

Would not be fair

Your lips so soft

The sweetest thing

And on your hand

I’ll place a ring

You will be mine

Forever more

Like a bird in flight

Our love will sore

I won’t stop fighting

I won’t give in

To make you mine

It’s what I’ll win

When you watch me

Your love surrounds

And our lives together

Will know no bounds

And so these words

You should always remember

My heart to you

I will always surrender