If I’m gonna get used to everything like this, I would choose the full-of-regrets, playing with fire

Our heartless promises, countless mistakes and other wrongs, our unspeakable and small wounds

The glass filled with memories is more bitter as I drink it

But I think I know why I keep drinking it

Why am I getting so sad that everyone lives this way?

Our first text and phone call that was filled with awkward moments

Our highly anticipated first date, why did I bite my nails? Why was I so nervous?

As time went by, we naturally developed into lovers

With those kinds of words, we checked each other’s feelings

Our first date was sweet like a caramel macchiato

Wherever we went, we wanted to go together

But as time went by, those feelings went down like dripping down espresso

My insides ache for no reason, we used to be so good

Breaking up was like a bitter americano

My memories still go to that cafe

I remember we chose to break up after promising our futures together

As I drink this minty coffee that you used to like, I think of you, rewind

A lot of time passed and these days, I sometimes miss you, I wonder why?

Baby you're a caramel macchiato

You were warmer than the scent of a cafe latte

Do you remember that feeling?

Remember when I said that it would be the last that you'd ever see of me..

Remember when I broke you down to tears..

Remember when I said I'd never walk away from you..

Remember all the happy times..

I will always remember.

-Naush

You're way too beautiful girl, that's why it'll never work. You'll have me suicidal, suicidal when you say it's over. See it's very defined. You're one of a kind, but you mush up my mind, you often get declined. Oh no, my baby is driving me crazy.

When the night has come and the land is dark, and the moon is the only light you'll see. No I won't be afraid, no I won't shed a tear, just as long as you stand by me.

You mean to me what I mean to you and together there is nothing we won't do cause if I got you, I don't need money, I don't need cars, girl you're my all. 

Now I know I can't be the only one, I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight, with the love of their life who feels what I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you.

There's a new wind blowing like I've never known, I'm breathing deeper than I've ever done. It sure feels good to finally feel the way I do. I wanna love somebody, love somebody like you.

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend. Lucky to have been where I have been. Lucky to be coming home again. Lucky we're in love in every way. Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed. Lucky to be coming home someday.

You make me wanna say I do I do I do! Cause every time before it's been like maybe yes and maybe no. I can't live without it, I can't let it go. Oh what did I get myself into? You make me wanna say I do!

I won't hesitate no more. It cannot wait. I'm yours.

It's a thief in the night to come and grab you. It can creep up inside you and consume you. A disease of the mind it can control you. It's too close for comfort. 

Your mind is in disturbia, it's like the darkness is the light. Disturbia, Am I scaring you tonight? Ain't used to what you like. Disturbia, oh disturbia. 

Where have the times gone? Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If "happy ever after" did exist, I would still be holding you like this. All those fairy tales are full of shit. One more stupid love song, I'll be sick.

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though going on with you gone still upsets me. There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay, but that's not what gets me. 

What hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away. Never knowing what could've been and not seeing that loving you is what I was trying to do.

Never mind I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you. Don't forget me I beg, I remember you said, sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

We know it's never simple, never easy. Never a clean break, no one here to save me. You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand. And I can't breathe, without you but I have to, breathe without you. But I have to.

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness, like resignation to the end, always the end. So when we found that we could not make sense, well you said that we could still be friends, but I'll admit that I was glad it was over.

You didn't have to cut me off, make it like it never happened and that we were nothing. I don't even need your love but you treat me like a stranger, it feels so rough, You didn't have to stoop so low. Let your friends collect your records and then change your number.

I guess that I don't need that though. Now you're just somebody that I used to know.

Why does it have to go from good to gone? Before the lights turn on and you're left alone. All alone, but here comes goodbye.

Send my love to your new lover, treat her better. We've gotta let go of all our ghosts. We both know we ain't kids no more.

If tomorrow never comes, will she know how much I loved her? Did I try in every way, to show her everyday, she's my only one? And if my time on earth was through and she must face this world without me. Is the love I gave her in the past, gonna be enough to last, if tomorrow never comes?

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind? For me it happens all the time. It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you know. Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now. And I don't know how I can do without. I just need you now. 

(This post contains portions from the following songs in the order below. No copyright infringement was intended.)

1. Beautiful girls - Sean Kingston

2. Stand by me - Ben E. King

3. With you - Chris Brown

4. Somebody like you - Keith Urban

5.Lucky - Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat

6. I'm yours - Jason Mraz

7. Disturbia - Rihanna

8. Payphone- Maroon 5

9. What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts

10. Someone like you - Adele

11. Breathe- Taylor Swift

12. Somebody that I used to know - Gotye & Kimbra

13. Here comes goodbye - Rascal Flatts

14. Send my love (to your new lover) - Adele

15. If tomorrow never comes - Ronan Keating

16. Need you now - Lady Antebellum

-Naush 

I stand in the rain watching intently as you walk away from me.. for eternity this time.

My already battered heart breaks into a million pieces like glass shattering that no one hears.

Even before all this, I was filled with inevitable regret.

Regret for walking away from you.

Regret for not believing in you enough and walking away from you again.

Regret for breaking your already weak heart with my harsh words and cruel betrayals.

I have fallen in love with you every single day since we've met.

Now, as I stand here all alone after all these years, never getting any word from you..

I realize that I have truly accomplished what I set out to do. Break you heart and disillusion you from the already harsh reality that you call life.

I  never realized what I had until it was already gone.

It is with this heart wrenching, g

ut turning thought that I finally concede that I will always be filled with regret for what I did.

One thing that I will not and do not regret is falling in love with you.

That I would do a million times, over and over again.