When they see me

At last

I always open up

Only to be

Shot down

I miss you like heck.

That's all I want to say.

Can't you come back?

When they told me

You had gone away,

I didn't think they

Meant forever.

I thought you were

On vacation,

And was jealous you

Didn't bring me.

But even now that I 

Understand what they said,

I still wish that I

Could have gone too.

Because this world is cruel,

And terrible,

And very, very mean.

Can't you have taken

Me with you?

I break everything I touch,

Family,

Friendships,

Hearts.

But if you can tame

My angered soul,

I won't break you.

Everybody asks me

What I want to be

An architect?

An engineer?

Maybe a teacher?

But what if

I just don't know?

I want to be someone,

Is that just not enough?

I want to make

A difference,

Do something with my life.

Maybe travel the whole world,

Eat lots of food,

Meet new people every day.

But how am I to know

What I want to do

If you tell me that I shouldn't?

I feel like falling,

And no one understands my urge.

I feel like jumping,

And no one comes to cure me.

I feel like cutting,

And no one notices when I do.

I feel like dying,

And no one cares that I am gone.

It Never Ever Works

You scar me with your words,

With the names,

The insults to my face,

Behind my back.

I try to ignore you,

But it never,

Ever,

Works.

You bruise me with your fists,

With the punches,

The hitsto my face,

When the teachers aren't looking.

I try to tough through it,

But it never,

Ever,

Works.

You left me all alone,

For me to die,

Painfully, broken hearted,

With no comfort at all.

I try to live through it,

But it never,

Ever,

Works.

Our Love

Our love was a story,

With what I thought

Would be a happy ending,

A happily ever after.

But that wasn't the

Ending we had,

Was it?

Instead our love was a story

That abruptly came to an end,

No happy ending,

No happily ever after.

We had the ending of

A fairytale villain,

Despair, depression, and

One

Broken

Heart.

The Perfect Love

Our love

Was perfect,

The love

That everyone

Was so

Jealous of.

The love

They had

Always wanted,

The love

That they

Longed for.

Until The Sun Goes Down

As the sun goes down,

I look into your eyes, 

And they look just like

The beautiful sky.

We both know

That I'm going to have

To leave,

But I just can't.

You're my everything,

Even when I had

Absolutely nothing,

You were there.

And now I have to leave,

To save us from the pain

That is sure to follow.

But I don't want to go

Until the sun goes down.

Mixing Tears

As the rain fell

Fell that night,

So did my tears,

Getting lost in the

Newly formed puddles.

We were we always together as the music played,

You were my everything,

Oh well, oh well,

Because now I'm crying here in the shower,

I just can't believe you're gone.

You left me here alone,

Reaching for more and more,

Wanting for someone's love.