Trace low level amounts of blood in my veins

The constant ticking of care ever pains

The idea of sacrifice has long been martyr stained

Like a dresser with all the drawers locked

It would be better if we both got socked

If I was the only one to learn a lesson I wouldn't be shocked

I'm thinking much like me and how I see

How I take the time to be someone different

Someone new 

Someone nothing at all like you

You may have changed what I do

True

but not who I am

Is there something for thee worth more than me

Have you gone on and forgotten me 

Am I but dust do I blow away like leaves

Or is it our love that up and leaves

Has the cold blown stone that turns and waves

Made sure I'm the only one that behaves

Has my trying and fighting for you only saved

You from the truth that I've made I've paved

Shouldn't you have worked on the road too

Is that not why our love came unglued

Is it not the choices we've made

That our love obediently obeyed

We told it to rip us apart 

Well I bet it will it just has to start

It would appear I've fallen from grace

From the white walled halls with tall columns I've paced

Every thing that I've done has come to haunt me

I'd lean on my friends but they no longer want me

I'm not alone here in this place I've found

Though there certainly isn't anyone else around

I am made of glass

So shiny and reflective

I'm much like a mirror

Behind me you can't hear her

I don't work two ways

And you can only see me from one

The one that hides what's inside

With just a thin divide

Punch just hard enough and I'll break

Only slightly and I'll shake

If you put pressure I will crack

And once I have you cant take it back

They say breaking a mirror is bad luck

Just do it already who gives a fuck

Reach out for me 

Feel my heart

Reach out for me 

Feel my soul

For my presence people pull

I am not much

There will be nothing left

You all must be rather deft

The golden ichor air

The violet rays from trees shine fair

The bright pink sky

For the world the black ooze vies

Vibrant yellow leaves

Ruby red sleeves

Black and white face

Hands against cheeks of grace

Thumb across the soft skin

Our relationship never to begin

Renovations to a clean place

Something that only debased

Madness in the holy church

Lean forward and lurch

All this time for search

Yet still above me you perch

Red yellow, green blue

What can I do

To make you see me

Let you know me

Woes and weakness

Sick and seatless

Sore feet, weak knees

For no one truly sees

Who I am, my color

It's no wonder

I blend and shake

I'm shredded and fake

For christ sake

All my tones you take

Keep yourself happy on the outside kill yourself on the in

Anxiety like crack killing your dreams

Bright red blood spilling out through the seams

Disappointed people destroying your spirit

Until instead of enjoying a social event you only fear it

I'm near it, my wits end

Bending me past breaking

Point to my disappointment

Appointment with a therapist

This is the latter of my life

Batter up

Swing and a miss

That leaves most people pissed

Wished I was a different guy

Why then I'd be fixed and proper

Respected and a topper

Stop her or him from laughing at me again

When I'm at my wits end

And I have nothing to defend

Myself from what is surely my last straw

Not being able to cry enough being my fatal flaw

Here lie the highlights of my day

They're gone, they've gone away

I feel no pain

and see no hate

It's all been flushed away

Inside I'm a waterslide

My mood going down and washing away

Sick and swirling tidal waves curling tumbling me down the way

Here I go follow me, no

I'll just float away

So swift and sweetly, just try and treat me as I die today

Here lie the Highlights

The highlights of my day

They're gone

They've gone away

Feel no pain

See no hate

Throw it all away

Make me doubt it

Joke about it

Throw it all away

Listen to me

Thought you knew me

What do you know anyway

I doubt you'll see it

Watch me be it

Throw it all away

Here lie the highlights

The highlights of my day

They're gone

They've gone away

I feel no pain

see no hate

I'll just float away

For just a moment

For only a second

I felt it, the tender embrace

Of something so sweet to taste

Another much like myself

But different from everyone else

Someone special that meant much more

More than anyone before

A new type of being that deserves recognition

Ignition, to go where you'll never know

So try for better luck

And tuck in your shirt

Clean off that dirt

Flirt, make yourself known

Tone will tell them how you feel

Seal your emotion with the subtle commotion

The notion of love is much to thick

I might get sick

That type of thing though makes my heart tick

Bicker and quarrel are some things that aren't moral

For all the things that I've thought

Taught me that not all is as it seems

She beams her fake smile

She's shown it all the while

In denial I must have been

I swore I'd never see one again

Then I did and it wouldn't go away

I saw that fake smile every day

Fake and false they say

Can't they just go away

She was a dream of mine

Come to find she's real but wrong

Not singing to the happy song

I'd envisioned all along

The song instead was sad and lonely

If only she'd been the one

What fun it would have been

To have loved again

Don't let me ramble

Don't let me go on

Without telling me when something's wrong

Don't let me take to long

Or bother you when the timings not right

Tell me to leave you alone, maybe another night

Because tonight I can be on my own

As long as I'm not worried about you being alone

You see I can't handle the thought

All the sad sensations it's brought

When I let things be and think

That I might have missed the day you were at your brink

That you might not be here tomorrow

Give me a chance to drown your sorrow

Just let me borrow a moment

So went my fear of you not being here

The sun rose, but we never slept

Your sweet life we had kept