And through it all I guess I learned the hard way

I thought love was that thing you fought for

true love you’d fight for

you’d do anything for

I didn’t know the fight would be like this

my fingers turned blue and purple from the frostbite of your cold words

the scab has healed but I still feel the slash from your icicles you engrained into me

the soft words to reel me back in just to throw it all out with the echoes of your screams I could never get away from

i think I learned as much as i wanted to call you home I never could

i felt a safety with the stability of finally calling something home

yet I craved the time away from you, the moments I could take a deep breath

I envied the real love everyone else felt while I was forced to fall in love with what was presented through a page of photos of masked emotions and dread plastered with a smile and a caption

and maybe we used each other to fill this void

this hollow tunnel inside we called our hearts

i learned that sometimes not every love will be worth the fight no matter how much you’d want it to be

and through it all maybe love just wasn’t meant for me

As much hope and peace I want to say you bring me,

That can't be it

You make me feel like a feather

Like I'm slowly etching back in forth in the air

letting me absorb your every touch

You seemed to make it all disappear

Its still very dark though

It may hurt you but I can't keep you

I still feel a hollowness within it all

That seems wrong

Seems unfair

I can't hold on for my selfish needs

It hurts to want something and to feel so close

But yet I'm still so far away

The more I absorb you the more I see how your gliding on an inch thick of ice

Before you know it will shatter right beneath

Its time I let you be free so I can do the same