I've been warned not to be alone

I don't understand why

It's been explained that it makes one sad

Makes a heart ache and the mind crazy

But how can being with myself do that

The quietness radiating from within

Familiar voices whispering in my head

Awareness of thought and breathe

Infinite possibilities of action

With self.

Alone seems lonely but

Alone means spending time with soul

In the end I am all I have

I came into this world alone I die alone

With acceptance of this truth

I reflect and bask in the happiness of coming to know my being

That which occupies my earthly vessel

So dear friend I say this with kindness

Be alone.

Your soul will be in eternal gratitude Discovering a worthy being

Alive enough to be called friend

Is staring at you in the mirror

I know I hurt you when I chose to leave

You did not understand why

We were lovers, best friends and partners

Yet I chose to walk alone

I craved freedom and space to grow

To let my roots roam around the earth

Without feeling knotted and tied to a particular place, time or person

With you I felt that is what would have

You wanted to love me entirely

You consume my thoughts and body in all the way possible

I felt drowned in the whimsical sea of love

I should have been happy

But I knew I was not ready to swim it's depths with you

I did not have that sea within myself

I'm on my path now and I see that sea clearer than ever

I still long for you and wish more than anything to come to you

But I know that I am just paddling the surface

I have to dive deeper still within

And it must be done alone

I must learn to love myself

Before I know how to truly love you.

I'm sorry I was selfish

But it's what I needed to grow.

I miss you most of the time

Not all the time

I have forced myself

To cope with your absence in my life

Your number is carved into my brain

Ten digits that can never be forgotten

I want to call you

Pride gets in the way

Fear of rejection too

What if you don't love me like you used to?

Did I hurt you so much that I left you scared?

Calling you opens a new path for us

We cannot stay from claiming our souls as twin flames

And yet I pray when I do it's not too late.

Finding those ten digits now belong to someone else or worse no longer exists.

But if you are mine and I am yours

Time and lost words will always bring us back.

And if I am not yours and you are not mine

Maybe it's better I never called

But at least I hope you know

I will always love you

And I thank you for loving me so.

Do you know what it is

To be forced to do

something you love

So often it hurts

The thing you once loved

becomes your greatest pain

That's what I felt when I did what I did

Clouded by despair I saw no way out sacrificing soul through body all for

Fake smiles

Untrue passion

Meaningless wealth

Jaded and scarred I resurface

Unrecognizable to myself

My soul no longer knows me

I've betrayed my worth

Sacrificed for something so unworthy

I wish someone stopped me before

I hurt myself so.

Lesson learned

The world will let you suffer through grinned teeth

Than fight by your side through tears.

I know better now

Maybe I had to do what I did

Still it was a meaningless sacrifice.

I never want to be perfect

I want to be effective

In action and in love

I want to inspire above all

The idea that you are your greatest love story

Women, this is important

Love your self before any man

Spend time with your purpose before any one

Be selfish with all that is you.

No is a complete and valid answer, always.

Know yourself - your faults and blessings

Then look at yourself in awe of your humanity

You are the dream of your ancestors

With your great grand mothers blood running through you

You are whole just the way you are

More than enough and then some

We can be so cruel and harsh with each other

Words can cut sharper than a double edged sword

Life and death lies in the power of the tongue

Cycles of generational miscommunication

Cycles of pretence to please those bestowed with power over us

Cycles of suppressing our true self

Choosing to stay caterpillars when we are destined to bloom

What holds us back from being butterflies?

Fear which speaks on a larger problem

We do not know love, many of us will not truly know it in this lifetime

There is no fear in love

There is no cruelty in love

There is no possession or control over the other in love

In choosing to practise love, we speak life, we seek light, we heal our spirits together

There is no force greater than this

yet we are so easily consumed with

anger, power, lust, violence.

As a family we are divided and broken.

We let the past interfere with our present, casting a shadow to our future.

Ego blinds us to seeing the cumulative change and personal growth we make daily striving to become better.

We choose to live in a space of pain and hurt, recounting the moments that made us feel small and unworthy.

We refuse to heal ourselves because that requires effort and an active choice of change.

We refuse to choose to be happy, to heal our pain and turn it into laughter because we don't know the pitch, tone, variance or vibrancy of this laughter.

We fear the outcome believing that if we let go for one moment to truly practise love and heal some how we will get hurt and fall even deeper into the spiral of despair,

living the rest of our lives under a dark cloud.

We lack faith to believe that love is our birth right

We are afraid that in choosing love we choose a new unknown identity. We are not the same once the choice has been made.

There is no fear in love. There is only faith and hope.

I pray that you know love and if you do not get this opportunity I pray that you get a glimpse of it. You are deserving and worthy but the power lies in you.

When the ground I walk on begins to crumble and quake

When my foundation turns from solid rock to sinking sand

When everyone around me has failed and I have no one to turn to

I know I can turn to you

When my thoughts drown your voice

You find a way to force my heart to be quiet and listen

When times are hard and I feel like I'm caught between a raging fire and tumultuous ocean

You remind me to be still and know that you are here

Be still and let the pain, sadness, confusion & sorrow wash over my soul

Reborn in love I know I will see it through

This road is hard and it seems the devil has set traps to fail

But I will not, you have brought me here for a reason.

You will guide my steps when I cannot see my feet in front of me.

I trust you and humbly surrender my fate to you.

I am not strong enough to do this one my own

But with you I can climb mountains.

He was deeply afraid to be with her

With all of her

Supple body discounted

Her mind was fertile land ready to be ploughed

Silently knowing if he farmed there

His sun would become the moon

Ego fights but mind awakens

She is to be his guide

You don't know how deserving of love you are.

No one told you.

So when love took a hold of you

Panicked and frightened you attacked.

Hardened, killing every effect it had

shuting down your need for this gift.

Looking for some reason why you are better than that.

You felt soft so you told yourself you were weak.

Not knowing only hard surfaces break.

Stay close to me lover

Let me linger in your smell

a few moments more

To consume you in your entirety

Your quiet strength disarms me

Letting go of ego I fall to you

In humble submission

Of the beauty of your humanity

Dear lover

Let me make you feel light

Shining your glory back to you

May I be your mirror of truth

A reflection of your growth in love