I for the last few months have had something to keep me up at night. Tonight I am thinking about my awesome amazingly amazeballs boy friend charlie.

For a few months it has been hard I am no longer able to go to his house according to mom .. Ugh mothers and there crazy notions..

I honestly don't care I just want to get the fuck out of this house . I can't do shit when I am stuck in such a place that only allows me to stressed out and bitched at.... I don't care any more .

I am done the day I turn 18 I am moving in with Charlie and his family <3 , and I don't have to worry about a lot anymore.

We all have nightmares at some point. Things we fear or hate! Right? Yes we do ,all of us every single one of us do!

I have this thing were I pass out and find my self reliving one of scariest moments in my life. I don't remember it ,but I can feel it. In my case it is a memory .

Those things you try so hard to hide . Only to realize that they have a way to bubble back up. Such dark scary things...

What is my favorite word?

This is a challenging question!

I would say it changes a lot depending on my mood or surroundings.

Right now it is hope. I have a lot of things to keep hope over .

Maybe get some answers and get everything done..

Life is very complicated ,as long as I continue to keep hope that everything will be fine I will survive!