5/20/15

I'm just holding myself for tonight 

Feel his kisses on my cheek 

His body against mine 

No strings attached 

No bullet to my head 

Like sand threw my fingers 

I melt into him 

Through his pores 

Down his throat

His scent stains me 

And I'm in fucking heaven 

He gets lost with me in the woods 

Can't find an exit out of this organic labyrinth 

We've moused around in subways 

Left graffiti carvings sprayed onto the oily bars 

He's fucked me in my grade 6 classroom 

At 6pm 

Schools out 

Did you honestly think it would end here? 

6/12/15

Should you have to crack my soul apart 

Make a thesis about who I am 

Watch me throw up my bile and breast milk 

I'll squeeze my fat ass into your denim jeans 

I'll play my role like the cards I was dealt 

Are you telling me you can't hear me screaming for you 

You can't sense it at all? 

The sky is aching 

Even in the summer sun 

A weeping child crawls by 

My emotions are nameless expressions 

Your silence is the greatest fuck you 

I'm internally bleeding 

My lungs are filled with water 

I think I spat at the mirror 

To spite my face 

7/11/15

Hurry 

There isn't enough time 

There's flowers in my hair 

And gold in my hand 

I can feel water up to my ankles 

Its splashing onto my dress 

Come with me 

Their isn't enough time 

5/6/16

The air forced its way through me

Dressing the insides of my body 

Keeping my blood red 

She pushed her fingers through my hair 

And winked at me 

A smile crossed my face and I turned around 

 He sat on the ground crying 

Whimpering 

A gray beard on his pickled face 

Ashley crouched in front of him 

' Look down at the floor below you... Soon all your insides will be right there.' 

She pointed at the area in front of him, obstructed by his crooked limbs 

'Can you imagine?' 

'Stop'

'I can't'

Her whispers were like poison

The kind of poison that coagulated your blood

She grabbed him by the throat

Squeezing harder and harder every moment

His eyes cried

Crying for oxygen and release

It's no fault of your own 

But you mustn't read into anything 

Understand a thing 

U are in the universe

And you are a universe 

No truth 

Is the whole truth

No lie is full 

Where it started 

It already ended 

We are contradictions 

Contradictions of a lie we told ourselves 

This means nothing 

But someone thinks it means everything 

At times you are outside of this all 

Other times you're in it

You don't even know

You'll never know. 

She is the reflection of you 

She is nothing like you 

- Alythia48 

4/23/15

I write for myself

Cause it's everything I wish I heard

I write for myself

Because I can't rely on the love of others

I write for myself

That is why it doesn't feel like world

It makes me feel special

It makes me feel a little fucked up to

My thoughts, manifested

Sharon’s blood started boiling in her mouth

Alex, still silent, made a guttural noise of concern

‘Tate?’

‘Aéolyn.’ He mimicked

‘Watch me.’

He nodded

And pushed his hair back

His perfect smile encouraged me

I patted her face and tried to wake her up

The blood only found interest on the left side of her face

‘Wake up beautiful.’

She was basically gone

I kissed her lips

Then looked into her eyes

‘Are you afraid now?’

My hands trailed down the architecture of her throat

Then down her washboard ribs

Until they found the comfort of her breast

Then I shoved my hand into her chest and ripped things out

My fist stung

Her eyes glazed over

Death draped over her eyes with its cloak

Alex started sobbing

Repeating ‘No, no, no.’

Shaking her head

Losing grasp of her mind

She started tugging at the rope

I stood up and they came undone

She charged at me

For I was her next victim

I was prepared

You have to love how predictable basic instinct is

My eyes sent a message to Tate

Just before Alex jumped over her perforated girlfriend

And slammed me against the wall

She grabbed my neck

Her blue eyes came to life

I felt weak

She squeezed my neck harder

I got high off my lack of oxygen

A rush of endorphins coated me

I closed my eyes

I felt my cartilage being repositioned

‘Your turn.’

Tate came behind her

He shoved the knife inside her back

Towards the sky

Her grasp shuttered

I opened my eyes to Tate smiling

I smiled and pushed her stupid body away

Still light headed and soft

I dragged Tate closer to me

‘Thanks.’ I said

I pushed him off and told him to lay down on the canvas

He did as I told him

Then I sat on top of him

I placed him inside me

Then we went for it

Like caged animals in heat