My attack back slap back

To back slap every false Christian speaking false doctrine

Who said they have the love of Christ in them

But then people, addicts, those like me & you; broken they have forgotten

They are a weak accuse of how God uses his people

They fit their bible verse in context to what they chose to be called fixed or saved

A Christian judging us stop them from gaining our trust

It’s a must & trusts me they are nothing

If they are never dying to something

We have died thousands of times for their pain, blame, shame,& games.

While they continue to spray in your face in their fake false ass synagogues.

False God who robbed Gods children from ever becoming

What God really talked about

That’s another reason why I had to leave,

Pretty much everyone wanted something from me &

Expected not to pay!

From my clothing line, my books, my time, my experience, my pain, blood & tears

Exposing everything about me in it rawest form, to tell my truth, all these years

People baulked at $15 bucks!! Are you kidding me?

11-year addiction, 4 years to write, 4 relapses to the underworld, 3 years in jail &

My story rejected &you couldn’t respect to pay $15 bucks!

That was fucking heart breaking, felt disrespected

I saw what the people around me really meant

When I actually did finish what all of them doubted I ever get

I was called a hypocrite, narcissist, talked down to because I said God told me to write it!

I was told wow Chris that’s so cool ill read your book

To it never being picked up, & it sat there as it collected dust &

This comes from my family, friends, teachers, pastors,all these so called leaders

I looked up too that told me to get my life straight

So when I did, they seem to be shocked &

Turned their back on my success!! Or

Didn’t know how to respond, it just broke me &

God showed me their real motives behind all the false lies they held inside.

They didn’t give a fuck if I lived or died

So I left to find myself & be myself

You watch God will use the weakest of the world

To rising & speak on behalf of those forgotten

Those left to die on the other side; just like they left me.