flawed remembrances

Resting in Peace

or resting in paradise

usually lies

an "amazing" person,

one loved by everybody,

flaws forgotten.

Made up to look alive

even if they had been

bludgeoned in the head.

A slate wiped clean by the guilt

of speaking ill of the dead.

I'd rather

you remember me

as a ball of anxiety

and crying tears of black widows

who tried to exact revenge on those

who dared mess with my soul

I wasn't always brave

and didn't always make

the right decisions.

Remember

that I was broken

but I used my shards

to fight off my demons

and reconstruct protective walls

to keep myself together.

because my life belongs to me

not the things that have

happened to me.

Know that I hated

Know that I loved

And that I lived the best life

that I could.