the last time.

through my sleepless haze

my eyes catch your silhouette.

i lunge for you, seized

by a seismic jolt of want;

i grope and grasp for you

even though you aren’t there;

i crave, i pine, i yearn.

if only you knew

how every part of me protests,

how my chest sighs,

for the thought of you clings

to my already-heavy heart,

how my shuddering lungs scream,

for with every breath i take

you snatch the air from me.

no euphoria is this destructive.

you wrap me in your deadly embrace,

stroke a finger down my throat.

it’s inexplicably exhilarating,

yet i wonder

as i thrash and writhe from the pain,

why i wander whole worlds for you

just to sink into your sweet poison,

the blissful agony of your touch.

just one, one more time.

the last, the last time.