Blue and soft

I loved him.

So much and so fearlessly.

I told lies to my parents so I could see him alone for a few hours.

I was so sure about it, him, us.

I remember the silence in his house.

His room was painted blue, there were Pink Floyd and Deep Purple posters on the walls.

His bed was big and we lay down for some minutes.

He stood up and turned on the CD player and the fan on the ceiling.

We kissed.

I trembled.

He did too.

Are you sure?- he asked

I smiled

Yes, I love you - I said

He was so tender and lovely with me, we caressed each other's faces.

None of us had a clue of what we were doing.

He smiled and I laughed.

-Where...?

-I don't know... Maybe... No... Wait , there

-Does it hurt?

- Yes a little, but don't stop.

- Wait, you should be above me so I don't hurt you, I don't want to hurt you.

- Ok

We were sweating and trembling, filling each other's bodies with kisses. I felt his hands all over my body and I placed mine on his neck and shoulders.

I love you, I love you... we repeatedly said to one another.

We did it slowly and carefully until he couldn't handle more.

- Did you like it?

I did. I felt so loved and so safe in his arms.

We belonged to the each other, we were one body and heart from the beginning to the end.

I didn't feel ashamed, but tears started falling down my cheeks, there were just so many emotions going on and I couldn't handle them.

-Baby don't cry, are you ok? Did I hurt you?

- I'm not hurt, don't worry, I'm just so happy that life made me find you, I wanna be with you forever.

- Someday I will marry you, I swear I'll be yours forever, even if you find other person I will look for you and marry you.

We were young and full of love.

It's been almost 8 years since that day... I haven't seen him in 3.

He changed and so I did.

We were not meant to be forever.