That Anorexic Moment When

When you learn how many calories

Are actually in olive oil

And begin to regret every salad

That you have ever eaten in your life

When you remember cold baths

Burn as many calories as a workout

So you submerge yourself in ice

For an excruciating hour

When you take the stairs even though

Your ankle is sprained

Knowing every little bit builds up

By detracting from your overall mass

When you feel faint and remind yourself

You deserve this

You are only fasting like this to fix

The which you selfishly ate two days ago

When you leave behind your coat

So the cold air will sting you

Forcing your body

To work harder to keep you warm

When you try to eat and then

The panic hits

That you are a pig/animal/out of control

And you want to be real/good/in control, don't you?

When you cry over forty calories

That are over your limit

Of five hundred calories a day

At the very, very most

When you dodge being diagnosed

Due to your gender

And you think, 'I will be the one

They only diagnose postmortem'