Backbone

Maybe you make me smile

Maybe you make me laugh

And maybe you make me happy

But truth be told those are all things

In which I fear, every night

As I lie in bed, thinking of

All the things going on in this crazy world

I always think back to you

But I fear the greatest

Because I only got the worst

And I begin to wonder,

Am I the worst for you?

My mind intertwined with

The darkest depths of hell itself

And the unsettling thought

Of you loving me, sunk in the pit

Of my stomach and twisted a 180 degrees

But I wanted to love you

More than I wanted to love myself

and maybe that's why I couldn't love either of us

Because I couldn't love myself enough

To be our backbone