Affliction

I really want to love you

to tell you how i feel

to let words just cascade out my lips

where they have been barricaded behind the tallest dam

of self-consciousness

since I met you;

But I worry

its all too much

and I feel

as though I am a looking glass and you can see right through me

because vocalizing my feelings

will make it all too real;

And I'd like to think of my self as an adversary

or a fighter

but right now I am not

and I can't leave myself vulnerable

to rejection and change

But I am losing time to the thief of opportunity

and I feel you slipping away

and this worries me also;

Was it something I said?

or something I didn't say?

I really want to love you

but I can't yet tell you how I feel

I only hope tomorrow

won't be too late