Dreams

I'm tired 

Tired of pretending

Tired of loving

& most of all tired of not being able to cry cause I feel so dead inside

Don't you ever feel this way?

You become friends with rejection and pain cause that's what your most familiar with , there always just there waiting for it to happen again.

I feel so small in such a big world.

 Feel so insignificant that crying out for help won't make a difference knowing there's several others doing the same.

You think they probably need it more than you and I believe it

What a travesty I know 

To believe something so soul crushing it physically hurts you it makes your bones weak and heart ache you feel as though your body will collapse at any moment

But the most dreadful thought of all is knowing you want it to happen because at least the Pain will subside for a moment 

It's almost like dreaming but hoping you'll never wake up