Borderline

What to do with the dues over me

To be toothed or vanished on the worst

Is this what is meant for me to be

I'm a vigilant knave on the edge of a knife

I know what to be when it's for me

To be footed or vaporized under the thirst

Is this what is scripted for me to play

I'm an elegant grieving haunting the disturbers of my life

And they know when to put off my abnormal heat

I cannot be the one you want for me to see

Dessert had lost the taste and left its place to the sour

A covert narcissist who loves to roleplay dying

I cannot have the thing you want for me to have

Deserted by the heroes and now paying the thorns of the rose

A river pierces towards the life's spine

It brings the life but takes it away from me

What to be with the bees inside me

To be erased or to eradicate at the burst

Is this what I feel like I am supposed to do or be

I'm a dual in my person, can't choose which to use tonight

I know when to be if I know what to want

To be dragged or blamed behind a smirk

You're treating me with the thoughts of suicide

I've never been able to see the good side

I cannot flee as I've always wished to do

Nor it's not the time of showing the deals

I'm on my way to be deceived by you again

As I've always wanted to be hearing your soft lies

That's so fierce to keep me alive

I cannot let you do what you want to do to me

That makes me charged when I deny your gaslighting

I know when to stop but I pretend as I'd never know

This is the keys of my life which I walk my body on now

I know the true intensions

I've always conceived your plans over me

But I'll be always one step higher than you

Never forget this