There's sun on the outside

A brightness I can’t seem to find

And I hate rainbows, though seemingly kind

Why I am forced to be happy

Right after it rained

It’s a beautiful lie

The yearning thought of your apology

It's a hopeless void

Knowing you don't miss me

As if my name has no meaning

Do you remember the words

That came from your tongue

An inching spider

To mother a web of lies

There's sun on the outside

A brightness i hope to find

I want to love rainbows, so seemingly kind

But every day is exhausting

Rain or shine