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i never got close to things as a kid

never had a favorite stuffed animal, or subject, or friend

because nothing ever stuck

the moment i felt something was the moment we packed up the car and left

i had to say goodbye to my childhood cat, all my friends, and a town of 7 years

so when you walked into my life

i knew it was going to hurt as soon as i had to say goodbye

and maybe that’s why i wanted it fast

because i could make it hurt a little less if you were only in my life for a little while

we never fought, we never argued, it was just the happiness

and maybe i miss you the way i do because you didn’t ever leave a sour taste in my mouth

you never gave me a reason to hate you

but you gave me a million reasons to miss you

so when i pack up my car i feel the same way i did when i was a kid

saying goodbye to something i loved

knowing it’d be for the better