That Moment You Realize It Was All for Nothing…

Another late night at the office, another deadline that will be met just in time. My cell phone is ringing… my daughter…I can’t take that right now. She’ll be ok, her dad is there, he will cheer her little league game. I’m with her in spirit!

All work tasks will be complete, the board will appreciate me. The meeting is next week.

A text from my girl! Sweet! I’ll answer later, besides her dad is there, he will go to her third-grade play. I’m with her in spirit!

Whew, just in time, I sent in the forms, the board will be happy it’s done. I know we will get that grant!

My cute little girl sent me an email, I can’t answer now but her dad will be at her band performance. Middle school is tough. I’m with her in spirit!

I’ll stay late tonight for the event; the board will be present and see me working hard. Oh but…my daughter’s parent teacher conferences. It’s ok, her father will go. She does great in school anyway. I’m with her in spirit!

My little girl is in high school now, playing soccer! Her dad says she’s talented, even a starting player! Of course she is! I’m glad her father is there. And I’m with her in spirit!

The project was completed on time-just barely, but the board cannot be unhappy because everything came in at or under budget! I made that happen!!

My daughter called today; she is wedding shopping for a dress. I couldn’t do the shopping with her, but her dad saw her in the dress and said she was beautiful--I could have told you that! I was with them in spirit! I will definitely be at the wedding I told her.

My first grandbaby! She was born the day I finished our biggest project yet! What a day for celebration! My husband is at the hospital with my daughter. He said I will love my beautiful new granddaughter. She has her mother’s eyes. I will go there this weekend, I’m curious about her eyes. I am with them in spirit!

I’ve succeeded in my job! Many projects later I look around and see the accomplishments. I’m sure the board recognizes the successes over these years. And they will tell me one day soon as I am getting close to retirement! Then I will surely be able to go to some of my grandkids’ events. My husband attended most of them. I was with them in spirit!

I’m retiring this week. There’s a ceremony. I’m sure the board will acknowledge the years of service I’ve given, should be great! My daughter couldn’t come, my granddaughter is in a Broadway play for the first time. Haha, I didn’t realize she was so talented! My husband went there…They are here with me in spirit.

The board didn’t attend my retirement ceremony…

that moment you realize it was all for nothing. Regret.