Trying to Love

I went to bed beside you

and woke up all alone

although you’re still next to me

it’s like I’m with a ghost

An image of what I want to see

in a hollow vapid shell

Trying to make the love stay

But what if it’s only with myself

N/a’s and healthy living,

I thought that was you?

But really you’re another toxic trait

I can’t afford to do.

Childlike and free,

Is the image you want to be.

Cold and conniving

Is how you now appear to me.

In love with a dream

It’s never as it seems

Good Bye

& Good Luck, Babe

It was never going to be

with me.