Why
Why (complete extract)
Why do you judge me?
If you weren’t there when my father left to serve.
Why do you ask me?
If you weren’t there when he came back intoxicated and ready to hurt.
Why do you blame me?
If you didn’t witness how my mother had to cry.
Why do you doubt it?
If you didn’t see her bleeding like I did.
Why do you yell at me?
If you didn’t have to change friends every month to move forward.
Why do you silence me?
If you weren’t pointed at for thinking differently.
Why do you question me?
If you never flew only to be controlled.
Why do you ignore me?
If you weren’t locked up with the terror of clowns.
Why didn’t you hear me?
If you never sat humiliated outside after wetting yourself.
Why do you mock me?
If you never had to ask for blessings from a new last name.
Why do you doubt it?
If you never had to climb an altar and swear eternal love to an imaginary god.
Why don’t you touch me?
If you don’t know how much I enjoyed my pleasures.
Why do you whisper?
You weren’t there when I secretly swore I wouldn’t cry.
Why do you run?
If the pill to forget didn’t play its tricks on you.
Why do you punish me?
If starting to listen is part of evolving.
Why do you lie to me?
If the belt was called discipline, and discipline was called love.
Why do you point at me?
If I wasn’t to blame for what they chose.
Why do you hit me?
If you didn’t see how bullets silenced my brother.
Why do you trust?
If you didn’t see how life transformed my grandmother.
Why do you cry?
If the weight of my tears never left a mark.
Why don’t you go outside?
Where there are no fences, and silence reigns.
Why is your skin like that?
If the warmth of blood on the skin is nothing you’ve ever smeared on your face.
Why do you force me?
If burying another brother was never your fear but my monster's reality.
Why do you love me?
If you never asked yourself if the task was yours.
Why do you kill me?
If I always tried to love wildly but infinitely.
Why do you give me life?
If sometimes the desire to live was tied to the void.
Why do I ask myself?
Why is there a why?
Why was it with whom? And who is the why?
Why am I here, and why do I want to sleep here?
Why do they doubt my love, even though I loved two, three, so many?
Why didn’t I write this song before a writing or a poem?
Why? I love you. I love you all.
Song
"Why?" (Song Lyrics)
(Verse 1)
Why do you judge me? You weren’t there to see
When my father left to serve, leaving wounds inside of me.
Why do you ask me? You never felt the pain
Of him coming back intoxicated, drowning us in shame.
Why do you blame me? My mother’s tears were real,
You never saw her bleeding, you don’t know how it feels.
Why do you silence me? For fighting to be free,
You never wore the chains of being someone you can't be.
(Chorus)
Why do you cry for a story untold?
Why do you run when my heart unfolds?
You never held the weight of my pain,
Yet here you are, casting doubt again.
Why? Oh, why?
(Verse 2)
Why do you mock me? For names I had to take,
For blessings I begged from the lies I couldn’t fake.
Why do you whisper? You weren’t there that night,
When I swore beneath the shadows I’d be strong, I’d fight.
Why do you punish me? The belt was called love,
But love shouldn’t leave scars I can’t rise above.
Why do you force me? To bury what I’ve lost,
A brother gone to monsters, a soul that paid the cost.
(Chorus)
Why do you cry for a story untold?
Why do you run when my heart unfolds?
You never held the weight of my pain,
Yet here you are, casting doubt again.
Why? Oh, why?
(Bridge)
I tried to love, wild but true,
Infinite in ways you never knew.
I tied my will to the void of the sky,
Yet you ask me why, oh why?
(Outro)
Why do you love me, when the task isn’t yours?
Why do you kill me, when I’ve opened every door?
Why do I sleep, in the silence of this song?
Why do I love you, when I’ve loved all along?
Why didn’t I write this before?
A song, a poem, a plea to explore
Why? Oh, why?
I love you. I love you all.