Why?

Dear God,

Why me? Why couldn't you have chosen someone else to bear what you gave me? What you dumped upon my weak bones? Why did you make me suffer so much? Do I deserve it? What did I do wrong to deserve such punishment? Do you love me? I wait for a sign, any sign that you do. You have given me a lot to be grateful for, but what I need most is closure. I need to know why. Why me?

Your starved, forsaken lover,

-Ruby