Waiting to Die

Nothing’s worth anything now that you’re gone

Everything’s hollow and grey

The sun has gone down on my happiness

My purpose was taken away

There was only one woman I wanted to wed

One life that I wanted to lead

I’ll count down the minutes until I am dead

And until then, continue to bleed

I do not belong in the world of the living

You were the reason I stayed

What is there now, that I should remain?

To ensure that my debts are repaid?

Fifty more years of taxes and toil?

Escapism, gaming and porn?

Like a frog in a pan brought slowly to boil

There’s nothing left of me to mourn

You’ve eaten me up from the inside

Then you discarded the shell

You didn’t even bother to lay any eggs

You moved on, but I’m still in hell

Right where you left me, and where it began

When you lifted me out of this hole

Only to drop me back down here again

Due to factors beyond my control

There isn’t enough time to start over

I don’t have it in me to try

You were the light which saw me through the night

Without you, I’m waiting to die.