i feel emotions, i don’t have a choice in that

when i tell people i'm apathetic, they'll say some shit like "no, I've seen you get angry, be happy, upset" and shit like that. That doesn't mean anything

when i say i'm apathetic, i mean that most days someone could come up and murder me and i don't really give a shit as long as the death is quick and my corpse doesn't look too fucked up

i mean it when i say i'm okay with dying because i know that people would miss me but i always think "i'm dead so it's not my fucking problem if they're sad"

i feel basically nothing when i see horrible things happen in the world because why expect something good to happen? if something good happens, it's a pleasant surprised, but if something awful happens, it's just another tuesday.

i was like this in high school too. i'm in college now, and i don't see the point in giving a real shit. people are those toys you have as children, because even if you're attached to some of them, they'll either break and get replaced or you'll get older and toss them somewhere you don't have to see them