Tears and tides

I'm treading waters I was never meant to swim in.

Going against the current and crying out "why am I sinking?"

Submerged, wave after wave and barely breathing.

I reach for you, and I apologize for drowning.

The feeling of defeat weighing me down again.

I never even saw it was you who pulled me under,

Keeping me immersed in your ocean of lies and making me wonder,

Was it ever love or something other?