Turbulence a resounding dissonance resonant and pounding on my heartstrings. Threatening to destroy me.

In an instance I became who I don't want to be.

I don't want anything not given to me.

I don't want to manipulate or pressure, I just want a feeling that is not there in you, and as I see this it wrecks me.

Too true this empty feeling washing over me,

The ideology of loneliness being taught to me.

And I learn.

I'll learn and I've learned before, but life keeps insisting on teaching me this lesson and not keeping score cause the game would be over if it were to be tallied.

So the pain in this absence,

This sharp dissonant punch

It awakens me.

This is my reality.