Just In Case

"Just in case"

My mind is hazy yet wired,

I am restless, I am tired.

No wish to sleep, I'd rather stay awake.

11:56 .. 1:43,

Then suddenly it's 3:51 already.

A blink of my eyes,

Time quickly skips past me.

But I am no insomniac,

I just want to be free.

For me, to rest is to die,

For sleeping means cutting my soaring wings to fly.

The bursts of dopamine,

That's quick and fleeting,

They keep me from drowning in a sea of overthinking.

With a phone in hand,

Like a secret place with rainbow sand.

A sweet sense of comfort;

Writing stories,

Reading books,

For, I always gets overlooked.

Yet, the moment it's ripped away,

A burst of feelings, too many to say.

The world looks dull,

And death seems nice,

For this soul,

lost and purposeless of mine.

I procrastinate,

I wonder why,

While I delay,

While I stall,

The hours fly by...

Perhaps "just in case"

Is just a silent cry.